Worried about last try before Christmas!

[MAY324]

I’m coming to the end of my TWW and am due on next weekend. I’m starting to feel really nervous about finding out as I have so many hopes on testing positive in time for Christmas. We’ve been trying since July and starting to worry about although I know 6 months isn’t that long. Last year I thought to myself how I’d be pregnant this Christmas (so naive 😂) and I’m worried about how I’ll handle the disappointment. Does anyone else feel or felt like this? I just know I’ll find it difficult seeing people with children/babies and us not being close 🙈

I know exactly how you feel. I tested positive in December 2018 and was excited for the year ahead and thinking of my little baby at the next Christmas. That pregnancy ended as an early miscarriage. No hint of a positive by the next Christmas and I was heartbroken. I tested positive again January 2020 and DD2 is now 3.

I know the wait is horrendous but hopefully it’s not much longer for you now.

Hello, im int TTC month N°7, i know how you feel :)
Send some news please !

Cycle 24 for me also due at the weekend and not feeling very hopeful. But I’m doing some Letrozole cycles in the new year so fingers crossed for that working

I know exactly what you mean. I literally don’t want anything for Christmas apart from being pregnant!! I’ve been trying for 20 months now if it makes you feel any better.

It’s a lot of pressure to put on ourselves but it would be lovely. X x

I feel the exact same. I miscarried in August and haven't been successful since. It's such a stressful anxious time😔

It’s reassuring that others feel the same although it would be lovely if nobody did! We’re away at the weekend and my boyfriend said he hopes I’m not too upset if I come on 😫 feels worse! Hopefully not long to wait for us all now x

@MAY324 I feel exactly the same, just entering into our 5th cycle of trying. I’m so worried about not being able to get pregnant as we’re trying for baby number 1 and I never have been 😔
I naively thought I would be pregnant by now and the idea of not being pregnant by the time Christmas breaks my heart. Also, the fact that my period is due on Christmas Eve this month is really making me dread the festive period!

What cycle day is everyone on? I’m onto CD 5.

@SlinkMcSlink cycle 5 too!

@MissEmily5 ooo a cycle buddy! So this part of the cycle is dragging!! At least AF is coming to an end!

@MAY324 aw I’m sorry to hear that, I think partners aren’t necessarily sure what to say. My husband gets upset but says he knows it’s worst for me as it’s a constant thing for me- the worries on ovulating, the symptom spotting, the period etc. TTC is emotionally exhausting 😩

@SlinkMcSlink yes! I’m currently on CD3 and my periods become really light. Think I’ll be done tomorrow. What CD are you? :)

@MissEmily5 I’m on CD 5. Normally have cycles around 29 days. I had a chemical last week so hoping I’m super fertile because of this next week.

Hello also just jumping on this thread - I am CD4, have been ttc for a year, and am also feeling very anxious about Xmas. I remember DH and I chatting last Xmas about how we were going to start trying and how excited we were and how we may even have a baby by next Xmas - little did we know!! He has 3 older siblings who all have children and have conceived very easily and I have two close friends who have babies due in January so feeling very sensitive about it all so completely know where you are all coming from @MAY324.

@SlinkMcSlink so sorry to hear about your CP, how heartbreaking but like you said hopefully the hormones will help this month and a BFP and sticky egg is the result🤞

I have an average of 27 days cycle- think I’ll start testing my OPK right after my period and hopefully find my peak as it has been a struggle to find.

I went for an ultrasound today to check for cysts and the woman checked everything and told me to check for pregnancy in a few days with a wink. I’ve come home and tested and it’s a negative. I’m so gutted as I was so excited!

I’ve just done one now and this looks like I’m near ovulation which makes no sense because I’m only in CD 5. I know I had a chemical last week but this doesn’t make any sense to me. Premom app still says it’s low so perhaps it’s just my eyes.

@hopingforapeainapod so sorry that you’ve been trying for a year; it’s getting me by thinking that me and my husband could have a little babe by next year but I know it’s not promised. I flit between being hopeful to completely disheartened so often.

Just wanted to say, I totally understand how you feel about family and friends getting pregnant- both of our families have had very quick pregnancies recently and as much as we’re pleased for them, it’s difficult not
to be so sad and for us to wonder when it’s our turn😔

@SlinkMcSlink that looks quite positive to
me but maybe in the next few days you’ll get a peak result x

@MAY324 what cycle day are you? That seems like quite a strange thing to say - I’m no expert but I assume she could see that you have ovulated maybe but surely she can’t see fertilisation / implantation yet?! I’m sorry you got your hopes up - horrible when that happens - 🤞🤞🤞 you can test in a couple more days though.

@MissEmily5 it’s such an emotional rollercoaster isn’t it! Some weeks I’m more okay with it and other weeks I’m exasperated and frustrated and worried I will never be pregnant - we are trying for our first and have never had a bfp, so it’s pretty hard to stay positive at times. My period is also due on Xmas Eve (I swear I always bloody have it at Xmas) which is not great timing, I don’t want to be upset over the festive period but here’s hoping for a Xmas miracle for us all 🤞

@SlinkMcSlink I’m really sorry to hear about your chemical. I’d say that doesn’t look too positive yet (mine normally look like that a couple of days before I actually ovulate) so maybe it will get darker over the next couple of days. I know that OPKs can also sometimes mistake HCG for LH, so unless it is the HCG still leaving your system? Best of luck to you x

@hopingforapeainapod im day 25 so assume it would have showed up by now If it was going to be positive. Just wish she hadn’t said anything to get my hopes up!

I feel the same. Also day 25 or thereabouts and I can feel AF coming. This is month 11 for us and next month my period will be due on New Year's Eve and we would officially have secondary infertility. So feeling quite stressed about that! We haven't had any tests as I've been trying to be chill about it but it would mean 2024 probably being an intense fertility year.
I really did think I would be pregnant by Christmas and it's making me feel quite unchristmassy. I'm trying to remember it's just an arbitrary point in time. We have a 2 year old which helps but I am conscious of the age gap and me getting older!

Good luck to everyone!

@MAY324 awww I agree! You will be convinced that you are pregnant. I had a smear last month and the nurse commented that I was definitely ovulating right on that day. This got my hopes up thinking that I was guaranteed a positive because I health professional had confirmed that I do ovulate rather than a stick!

Oh that was naughty. Did you tell her you were trying? She probably saw a lovely thick endometrial lining.

Yeah she knew we’d been trying for a while. Yeah she said it was thick and that my corpus luteum still had a blood supply or something 😂 @SlinkMcSlink id have done exactly the same! You think because they’re the pros they know everything ahha.