So I was due to have an IUI with donor sperm at the end of the month - had the HyCosy to flush out tubes and booked time off work/my little one into extra days at nursery . Obviously got myself deep into the TTC trauma/hope cycle. Everything confirmed with the clinic …
I find out yesterday that they don’t actually have storage space for the sperm until it’s likely to be too late for this cycle. I haven’t stopped crying …
The options are -
- try delay my period to hopefully coincide with their dates. Not thrilled with the extra hormones
- hope that it does arrive in the country in time but have to travel to their arrival clinic for the procedure ( about 6 hours round trip- not sure what I do with my little one during that time !)
- Repeat the HyCosy (I’ve said I expect them to cover the cost because this was their mistake ) and wait until my next cycle . This would fall over Christmas and I might still need to try delay my period to meet their new year opening .
For my mental health, I need to begin asap so delaying into January isn’t an option- not to mention I won’t have enough annual leave /my little one will be back in the plague pit that is nursery. My last FET failed and while it’s impossible to know the reason , being pinned under a feverish toddler while we both had the flu can’t have done me any favours so I’m keen to avoid a repeat.
Stupidly , I felt really confident about this cycle - and while I know that’s no guarantee of success, it certainly made a huge difference going into things feeling happy and calm. I feel like that’s all been torn away and I’m back in this horrible trauma space.