TTC Rainbow baby

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Hi all,

just as the title says - I had a late miscarriage at 19 weeks.
TTC again, 3rd cycle since and AF arrived yday! I am gutted.
You dont actually realise how hard it is to get everything right to get pregnant. I didnt want to become obsessed by it but feels like I should now because it hasnt happened. My age is also not on
my side 😩 - Hopefully I get
my rainbow baby.

Rant over!

So sorry to hear that. No advice but for me a shift in mindset has helped - so much of it is pure chance, you can do everything “right” and it doesn’t happen, but it’s just chance. Be kind to yourself x

Thank you @Peony654 you are right! I just hope I get to make my little girl a big sister soon ❤️ X

I agree with @Peony654 . My loss was in early may and I obsessed so bad since. This month I got my bfp because I totally changed how I thought about it and relaxed a lot. Are you taking vitamins etc?
I started on folic acid, Vit D, and Vit B6
X

@Kellyaust im on holiday at the moment, my cycle was earlier than expected too - im going to stock up when im home.

amazing news on your BFP! X

Ugh I feel this.

I had a missed miscarriage in early July and since that I feel like I can’t go 10 minutes without thinking about TTC. My life revolves around testing, and waiting for ovulation, then wishing time away to get to my period.

I’m trying to find ‘things’ to do but even then, I know I don’t necessarily want to do them, i’m just doing them to pass time and distract myself.

I can’t stop googling things which may be ‘wrong’ with me. Hereditary problems down to hormone problems. And then allll the different scenarios which may mean we don’t actually conceive this month.

Literally feel like a shell of myself.

Thank you ❤️

You've literally just described me down to a T.... I had an MMC early may and from that point onwards I didn't even recognise myself....

I got to the lowest point ever just before my July AF and after that I knew something had to change. I stopped googling, I told myself there's absolutely nothing wrong with me, my AF was fine my cycle length was fine, and I said what will be will be and I'm sure in the next 12 months I will conceive again.

Low and behold I got my bfp this month at 9dpo.

There's hope and you WILL start to feel better... Trust in yourself. Look after yourself. And love yourself. ❤️

Thank you @Kellyaust it’s really kind of you to take the time to let me know I’m not alone in this cycle of doom.
the first time round I was extremely relaxed and pregnant within 3/4 months. I feel like how the missed miscarriage happened has just left me feeling like there’s a void that I desperately must fill NOW and if I don’t then it’s even more of a sign that something is wrong with me.
Worst part is it’s SO lonely because all my friends think I’ve just got on with things and if I told my fiancé, his first reaction would be ‘well we just shouldn’t try for awhile, you’re not mentally in a good strong place’. So I just crack on and google all my weird thoughts at 4am when I’m wide awake and everyone else is unaware.

Congratulations on your positive test, that’s lovely news for you, and gives me hope. I imagine that after a MMC the next pregnancy is maybe a bit more of an anxious one, I hope you’re doing ok xx

@HashB honestly I did exactly the same things, I was desperate so so desperate i thought that if I wasn't pregnant again straight away then I would never be pregnant again, nobody knows how low I was, like seriously low, but you also learn to realise that nobody around you could actually understand how low and desperate you can get... Unless they've been there themselves.

The hardest death to deal with is one that happens inside you, that passes through you. It's unexplainable to anyone. I can't tell you what to do, I can only tell you what happened to me and how it helped me.

This pregnancy is a miracle to me and I know I'm going to be a nervous wreck BUT I'm also happy, and at the same time I'm prepared for anything rhat could go wrong. I'm not blind this time like I was before. But I'm positive and happy right now.

My inbox is always open xx