so many emotions.

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I have officially become a serial googler and it’s now causing more harm than i thought.

long story short, i stopped my depo shot to ttc with my partner. it has been 3 months now, i have read every story i could find on google and on forums and it’s just starting to really affect me. me and my partner have no kids and we are ready to be parents now. i know that depo can take months or years to conceive after but i can’t help but think i will never be able to have my own baby.

my hormones have been all over the place, i tried herbal tablets to vitamins to help promote a hormonal balance and regulate periods but nothing.

i keep getting cramps and back pain and i always get my hopes up thinking my period is showing it’s face but it doesn’t. i had 3 days of spotting last week and i really thought that was the start of my period but it never came and now i’m so disheartened.

i wish i never took the injection in the first place and i am filled with so much regret and disappointment.

i just don’t know what to do now.

You’re putting way too much pressure on yourself.

You will implode if you stay at this pace - TTC can be a long journey, and as easy as it is to say it, you really need to relax and don’t think about it so much.

Take a step back and focus on things you can control. Start doing OPKs or temp, to check you’re actually ovulating first. Make sure you’re taking Folic Acid, eating a good balanced diet, drinking lots of water and little alcohol. Make sure your DP does the same thing.

then, try and have something else to focus on too. Get into a new hobby, do exercise, have a house project, you mentally need something else to keep you going. You don’t know yet what you will face on your TTC journey, so you need to make sure you continue to live your life and nurture your relationship. Enjoy sex as a couple, not as a chore for baby making, as it will soon get tiresome believe me!

and most importantly, reduce your google time!

Thank you so much. i really didn’t realise how invested i would be with ttc, i came off the injection knowing it could take up to 18 months and i was fine with that but i just put myself into panic mode with everything.

i’ll definitely get back into an exercise routine and focus on myself rather than ttc.

That’s great to hear. It’s really easy to be ‘we’ll see what happens’ and then somehow you end up in google holes wondering how it’s so easy for others and you must be the only person it’s not happening to.

I am speaking from experience! I’m 2.5 years in, one round of IVF and no pregnancies. Unexplained which feels crueller somehow as you have nothing to pin point the problem on!

I know I’m the minority though, not the majority.

the best advice is to focus on yourself and your relationship, and baby will happen.

I’m 1 months off depo and my emotions, mood are all over the place I’m swinging from one extreme to the other and just irrational I’m becoming anxious. This is AWFUL
please god tell me there’s others out there going through this?
move also read every forum, when does it end???

hi, it’s been 3 months for me now. sorry to say but it’s been a rollercoaster for me, i’ve found taking hormonal balance tablets helps lessen the symptoms.