Title says it.. 32, have now been ttc with DH for over six months and still nada. I track every month - last month I used both Amazon strips and clearblue just to cover the bases. Decided to pay for testing last month (mostly for peace of mind/pre-empt any issues) and which came back all fine for both of us. That made me feel more positive for a bit - and now it just feels like a kick in the teeth to get her another “not pregnant”.
I just can’t shake the feeling that if everything was fine, it would’ve worked by now - we’re doing everything “right” and so logically there must be something wrong which the standard tests can’t pick up.
It is really difficult each month in the days leading up to my period and bracing myself to see if it arrives, then the inevitable kick in the gut when it does, and feeling like I’ve let down my dh each time when I tell him. There is also a lot of external family pressure which makes it more difficult, and I am continually made to feel like I’m letting both sets of our parents down as we’ve been married for a while and they still don’t have grandkids. My younger sibling has now decided to ttc with their partner (they’ve been together a much shorter time) and I feel like a terrible person thinking that it’ll work easily for them and that I’ll just get bitter, and that our parents will just be dismissive.
Has anyone been in the same boat or able to offer words of wisdom? I know maybe this isn’t a huge amount of time to be trying but I really didn’t anticipate how difficult it would be emotionally! I’m open to IVF etc, but obviously you need to have been ttc for two years for the nhs.. and the thought of just continuing on with monthly disappointment until then (and then knowing ivf may not even work etc) is pretty tough. :( The friends I had who do have kids had them easily - so I just feel quite alone in all this and I guess want it off my chest!