Why do I keep testing?!

[Colourfullife]

I have two amazing children who are 2 and 4 years old. I currently work full time and am happy with life at the moment... my children go to a club every Saturday and I feel like life is good.
However, my husband and I have always said we want three. He doesn't want any more yet though... maybe in two years he has said.
I have the mirena coil, but I keep doing on average two pregnancy tests per month in the hope it has failed. Has anyone done that before? Is that really strange? Anyone's conception failed when on the mirena?

I realised that sounded strange saying they go to a club. I meant we are able to take them to clubs (dancing) in the mornings, so feel like we can give them opportunities in life as we are quite comfortable financially at the moment.

I think it can be quite addictive tbh.. and depending on how much you want it.. might be a little obsessed? Not ina bad way, just might need to do something else when you feel to test, like make a cuppa, go for a walk, something easy xx

I feel like you’ve answered your own question. The regular testing is a “symptom” of the fact that you are hoping your contraception has failed. It sounds like your husband isn’t ready but maybe you are?

I went through a period a few years ago where I was having some health problems that meant it probably wasn’t wise TTC until I had finished treatment. I knew that logically but there was definitely a part of me that would’ve liked it to happen accidentally. I wonder if because you life feels settled and because your husband isn’t ready logically you think it makes sense to wait but maybe a part of you doesn’t want to ?

Thank you for both of your replies.
Up until about 4 months ago I had only ever taken two pregnancy tests- one for each child.
Yes, maybe it is now I am settled, I am ready for another.
We discussed it today again, and he said he doesn't want to give up football (which is training once a week, so I do bedtime then) and on a Sunday (so he is out 2pm to around 8pm).
That doesn't sound too much right?

@Colourfullife I don’t think anyone can tell you what is right/wrong for your situation. Sounds like you are ok with it… so get baby making 😉