Would anybody like to hold my hand as I wait to see if this is my month

[worzil]

Hi

I started ttc my 2nd dc August 07.

I never guessed that I would bcome so obsessed with it though.
I am now imagining slight nausea feelings and am already gearing myself up for a BFP that probably won,t happen.

I don't think I can take a BFN and will sink into a depression if I get one.

I am currently on cd 20 but I have no idea when my next af is due.

Why af went awol for around 3 months shortly after I started ttc due to a newly diagnosed underactive thyroid.

On its return I have had a 33 day cycle and then a 23 day cycle.

I am also 37 yrs of age so that doesn't help matters.

I also don,t have a clue as to how long I can say I have been ttc.
Do I count from August or from when my cycle came back.

Anyway I think af may come this month has I have those vague sligth crampy feelings that is usally a sign it will arrive making me feel quite down.

I am living in hope though as I have heard alot of people say that af symptoms can be the same as early pregnancy.

I know I am probably heading for a fall when af turns up.

Any likewise people that would like to join me in this obsession.

CD 20?

I dont think you should test yet!

Disenchanted

No I won't.

I would like to hang onto that nice feeling that maybe I am a bit longer lol.

But seriously this is really dragging me down its on my mind day in day out.

If your shortest cycle was 23 days, I would wait at least till CD23 before testing. I would try to wait longer TBH, though I know how hard that is!

You are right about AF symptoms being the same as early pregnancy symptoms, and on top of that for some reason when we are TTC'ing we seem to be able to imagine all sorts of symptoms.

I wouldn't set yourself up a dissapointment and test now, it is too early. You will get a BFN even if you are pregnant.

Try and hold out till your longest cycle,

try 30 days if you can

teh you will get a definate answer rather than a negative at CD23 and the thoughts of 'maybe its just too early'

Saves anguish and money!

Fingers crossed for you xx

Thanks for that
I have a awful feeling that af will appear well before 30 days crushing any hope I have.

But yes if no af I will wait it out until at least CD 30.

If I test before that I will be thinking maybe its too early.

I have really got obsessed with it I carried out loads of tests before when my cycle went awol thinking that all of the BFN I was getting must be wrong because of no af.

I carried out loads different brands, cheapie ones, and just kept getting a BFN when all of the time it was the underactive thyroid causing the absent af.

Im the same!

Im on CD14 and have started bleeding so no clue whats going on with me at the moment