TTC after surgical termination

[hgunes]

Hi guys so im not looking to be judged and hope im in the correct place to discuss. I am a c section mother of 3 boys and 1 pre 3 pregnancys ectopic surgically removed me and dh hadn't been too careful the last few months being 35 i thought my fertility may be lingering anyway so pull out method seemed to work early march i found out i was 5 weeks pg with baby 4 and panicked and got scared of the risks of c sec 4 made a huge in the moment mistake to surgically terminate at 5 wks 2 days as soon as i came round i woke up crying and knew i would regret this forever and that the whole reason i had used pull out the last few months was in hope I'd fall with baby 4 im absolutely devastated i made such a terrible decision so quickly but we are all human and fear panic took over not looking for sympathy i have to live with what i done. But have one question when is it safe after surgical to start to ttc again we are 100 sure this is what we want

Absolutely no judgement here. I really struggled with my pregnancy last year and didn't know if I wanted it, sadly did lose it and now feel devastated and horrendous and racked with guilt.
We had a surgical termination at the end of January and my doctor said he would usually recommend waiting a cycle or 2 but if we were to start straight away it wouldn't be a massive issue, just a slight increased risk of it happening again, 1 in 20 I think he said. However I am now on progesterone pessaries to help support any future pregnancies. I wish you all the luck! And someone said to me, think of last time not being the right time and that baby will come back to you again xx

Thank-you so much for the reply so sorry you lost your baby. İ should have known after 3 initial reaction is fear etc and i needed time to accept a new baby was on it's way but it all happend so quickly for no valid reason other than fear and an appointment being so soon which i wish now wasn't available.
I am a bleeder during pregnancies i didn't realise they can put you on progesterone before conception. İ hope to have a period and then ttc again and wish babydust for us both.

Honestly, please don't feel bad. I had a counselling session yesterday and she said to me, what's done is done and we can't change the past, the feelings we had. We all do what we feel is right when we're in the moment.
And she also referenced, does someone that smoked in their life at some point deserve cancer? No! Does someone that had an abortion not deserve the chance again?? Of course you do!
Now you know what you want and that's amazing! Like me too. I never would feel like I wouldn't want a baby now, Sometimes it takes something to show us that. My sister swears by everything happens for a reason.
I really hope this works out for you. Yeah, progesterone can really help apparently. It's not wonderful popping one on twice a day, but short term inconvenience for long term gain I'm telling myself! I'm 9dpo so hoping this could still be our month but we'll see......
Hope it all works out for you x

Thank-you helps me to rationalise my feeling's waiting for my next period to come so we can try is agonising. Wish u all the luck in the world and hope you get you're bfp in the next week or so x

@hgunes its me again, I set up a new name as couldn't remember my log in! How are you? has it worked out for you? x Sadly not for me yet, still trying x