Trying for 2 plus years ONLY those frustrated please

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I feel like trying for a baby is making me a hateful person.
Finding out people are pregnant around me makes want to not be okay, I'm jealous there is no other word for it. People think I shouldn't be jealous of people, to that I say swear words. It will come when it comes to that i say swear words. Its mentally draining to not just lose my temper.
We have been trying for a baby for 2 years and 5 months at the start of trying I wasn't even sure I wanted to, we've lost 6 months plus due to the my boyfriends surgery refusing to send him for a sperm test cos I am with a different surgery. I work in pharmacy I see women getting preggers all the time horrendous drug abusers are popping them out left, right and centre, but not me I feel like I being punished. I'm 28 I was on the injection because I enjoyed not having to think about my period for too long , then stayed on it when I met my partner to be sensible. I spent the last three-four weeks thinking against all the tests and the fact that I had a really light period that I was pregnant got up to do a test again this norming it was negative, It's soul destroying. I'm fed up this is the lowest I've felt in the journey. On a more hateful side if one person tells me it will happen when it happens, I will go ape ship.

Sending love ❤️ it’s horrible and all consuming. We’ve been trying for 3.5 yrs and have had 2 early losses but haven’t told anyone. Like you, I wasn’t sure if I even wanted to initially (and we’ve left it VERY late as I’m late 30’s) and my husband is possibly more broody than me 😂 If we don’t manage it this month, we’re going to get the ball rolling on looking at IVF.

I’ve lost count of how many people tell us “oh you should just have one”

Someone I met for the FIRST time a couple of weeks ago said “you must have them, just stop the pill and have one” I almost hit her! I hope you get your baby and I hope people start to learn to not comment on things they know nothing about!!

17 +years here with a chemical pregnancy in dec so I feel your frustration.

I've lost alot of close friends in my life because it was too hard. They all got pregnant without trying or wanting to get pregnant and I couldn't bear hearing them constantly talk about their babies. It was too hard. I've also lost friends because of nasty comments and public jokes about our inability to get pregnant.

I know a few women who are alcoholics, one of them is a year older than me she's 38 and last time I saw her was about 4 or 5 years ago and she's had 5 kids already by 5 different men, her mother cares for them all. She drank with all her pregnancies. I remember seeing her in a bar id say she was about 7ish months preg at the time and completly wasted she could barely stand. I recall thinking such awful thoughts and shes lucky shes always pregnant or i would have beat the shite out of her. I know of another girl skinny little runt and another big alco how she can conceive I'll never understand. I know her father so have met her several times. She had 3 kids taken of her by the time she was 18 years old and has no access to any kids. She's been pregnant every year. I believe she had another 2 boys since that, I don't hear much about her anymore but I did recently see a family post last year that she lost a baby and apparently that was her 10th pregnancy and she's only like 25. I understand how annoying it is to hear stories about people who don't give a damn getting pregnant so easily.
Keep your head up and keep believing it can happen. I never thought I'd see that positive on a test and it's heartbreaking to have lost it after trying so long. I'm 37 so time is running out which just adds to my anxiety and desperation 😔