Hello
I recently went through a cycle of IVF/ICSI and was over joyed that it worked. I then had left sided cramps and irregular bleeding, which we eventually found out meant it was ectopic. I had emergency surgery in which my pelvis had filled with blood, was all very traumatic luckily didn’t loose tube as embryo had migrated into pelvis! . Surgeon also identified endometriosis. My husband has low moltility/mobility already and I just feel completely broken.
we don’t get anymore help on NHS just the one shot, and now we have to pay privately. Im barely able to pay for bills on my salary as a paramedic already and I’m just exhausted at the thought of trying again.
I keep crying when I’m alone, I just want to sleep for a very long time. Im exhausted. My body doesn’t even feel like my own anymore, it’s sore, has stitches, and swollen. Between the trauma of the IVF process and then surgery for ectopic I feel disgusting. Confidence is at all time low and I don’t even want to get out of bed.
DH has been supportive but now he is moving on and I just feel stuck
with the endometriosis, male factor and not ectopics don’t think we will ever get a baby.
im starting to feel bitter towards other pregnant people aswell and that’s really not helpful