Out this cycle. Again. This journey is mind-F))king.

Givemes · 2023-02-27T17:30:37+00:00

So I’ve been ttc for more than 1 year (not continuously due to DP away with work etc) And just got AF today :(((( regular as clock I seriously dont know if i can do this any more. the 2ww is mind-f))king, isn’t it? i have experienced so many different combinations of “symptoms” and my mind is blowing. For example, this month my cm didn’t dry up leading up to AF, instead it became cream lotion like. So I thought “great, this is different maybe this is it”. On the other hand tho, my boobs did not hurt as they used to. So idk, maybe not. Just like this, i am happy and unhappy within 1 minute for days until AF dropped by…… I just want to curl up and go to bed rn even it was barely dark and I don't think I am able to be function for work tmr. Ughhhhhhhhhhh 😰

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Givemes · 27/02/2023 17:32

And all those pregnancy posts on INS just made me feel worse… 😭

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cat709 · 27/02/2023 18:55

@Givemes
Hello, I've only been trying for 3 months unsuccessfully so far, but I do share in the disappointment when you think you have symptoms post-ovulation and they turn out to be nothing. I'm finding the wait from ovulation > period the worst. Once I get my period, I then have a slightly fresher outlook.
I've been doing ovulation sticks this month for the first time to see if I'm accurate with app. And my partner has gone away for work during peak ovulation :(
Good luck xx

overthinkersanonnymus · 27/02/2023 19:29

I'm at the 7 month mark and I'm sick of it! It's all consuming in those two weeks. I don't help myself by being a POAS addict either

Solidarity 💪🏻

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Givemes · 27/02/2023 19:46

cat709 · 27/02/2023 18:55

@Givemes
Hello, I've only been trying for 3 months unsuccessfully so far, but I do share in the disappointment when you think you have symptoms post-ovulation and they turn out to be nothing. I'm finding the wait from ovulation > period the worst. Once I get my period, I then have a slightly fresher outlook.
I've been doing ovulation sticks this month for the first time to see if I'm accurate with app. And my partner has gone away for work during peak ovulation :(
Good luck xx

Aww it sucks that your partner is away on your peak days but just take it as a little break i guess. I have used the ovulation sticks for a while but i don’t always have the darkest line idk why. I have done the bloods through GP and it shows all fine tho.

Yeah 3 months is not long, good luck too xxx

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Givemes · 27/02/2023 19:57

overthinkersanonnymus · 27/02/2023 19:29

I'm at the 7 month mark and I'm sick of it! It's all consuming in those two weeks. I don't help myself by being a POAS addict either

Solidarity 💪🏻

Thank you…I just needed to get it out from my chest and it means a lot to me.
7 months ain't easy and i fully understand and sympathize. I tried not to spot any symptoms but I got you, yeah, consuming!

For me the worst thing is that the fear of “what if it will never happen“ got the best of me at night and i got really anxious about it. I am 36 and half now. But I am sort of fit, exercise regularly and eat somewhat healthy (couldn't resist crisps haha ) I don't drink or smoke . Now I'm thinking to stop the habit of having coffee daily ( sometimes 2 or even 3 a day )

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Hiddenvoice · 27/02/2023 20:12

I feel your pain, I was trying for over 2 years before I finally fell pregnant. I tried everything and used so many different apps etc. I gave up trying, felt it wasn’t meant to be and within another 4 months I fell pregnant. I was so surprised. I felt like I was going to have my period, I felt achy and the usual hormonal emotional self but on the day I’d expected to start it felt like all my period symptoms had vanished, I felt within myself that AF wasn’t coming. So I put it down to having irregular periods again and got annoyed. It was a few days later that I thought I’d take a test before phoning the drs and was actually shocked.

I‘’m now ttc baby number 2 and feeling really disheartened by the thought of it maybe taking up to another 3 years.

Fingers crossed next month will be better! If it helps it turned out I conceived during what I thought was my 2 week wait!

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Givemes · 27/02/2023 20:41

Hiddenvoice · 27/02/2023 20:12

I feel your pain, I was trying for over 2 years before I finally fell pregnant. I tried everything and used so many different apps etc. I gave up trying, felt it wasn’t meant to be and within another 4 months I fell pregnant. I was so surprised. I felt like I was going to have my period, I felt achy and the usual hormonal emotional self but on the day I’d expected to start it felt like all my period symptoms had vanished, I felt within myself that AF wasn’t coming. So I put it down to having irregular periods again and got annoyed. It was a few days later that I thought I’d take a test before phoning the drs and was actually shocked.

I‘’m now ttc baby number 2 and feeling really disheartened by the thought of it maybe taking up to another 3 years.

Fingers crossed next month will be better! If it helps it turned out I conceived during what I thought was my 2 week wait!

Do you usually get irregular periods? 2 years is harsh and you must be so happy to get the bfp.
I hope your 2nd will come much faster. FC for you.
Just sit in the sofa and crying rn….

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Superstorefan123 · 28/02/2023 19:27

I’m right here with you - 10 months, 2 miscarriages, 1 clomid cycle and now AF again :( its so all consuming and I worry I’m getting genuinely depressed with it all :(

ive actually decided to book a 10 day holiday for the March TWW as I don’t think I can stand another disappointing fortnight, at least a holiday might be a distraction!

solidarity to all on this nightmare journey :(