Hey you, I have just come on here on purpose to contact you directly.....
Yes its Thursday, I was so jumpy this morning when the post man arrived, I'm waiting for the "Sorry we have had to cancel your appointment yet again, due to the consultants Christmas Party" letter, or similar. I am getting v nervous. When my appointment was origianlly booked for October, I received a letter on the Monday of the week I was supposed to be going, saying that they had to cancel it due to unforseen circumstances
, thats when all hell broke loose, one simple letter, destroyed everything within 1 second of opening it, so this time I have kept telling myself, you are going to get another letter, (although it hasn't arrived yet, there are still 3 more days, I go at 3.00pm on 9th Dec, LGI here we come, DH has been quiet these last few days, but he knows that I am scared and anxious, but I just seem to flip my lid at the slightest thing, DH wanted more back up, but other than you I don't know anyone who has had IVF/ICSI, we went away for DH birthday and had a long lenghty chat about what was happening, he seemed excited about it all then and that was 4 weeks ago, but he keeps telling me that whatever happens he will always love me and be here for me, then in the same breath tells me "Are you sure you want to go through with it", some days I say no not sure at all, but that is all down to nerves, I used to consider myself a strong willed person, but not anymore, I'm still nervous about what will happen on the 9th, then how long will it be, should we go on the NHS or pay for it... c'est la vie!!!, but I'm still smiling, so it can't be all that bad, can it
XXX