I never stop bleeding, I will never get pregnant or be a mum 😭

[SquashPenguin]

Im 36 and been TTC for five years. In that time I’ve had 3x IVF cycles 3x transfers and one chemical pregnancy.

I don’t have a regular (or normal) cycle. In fact they are the total opposite of anything that could be considered regular. I bleed for 35+ days every single time. Then it stops for 1-2 weeks, and then starts all over again. It’s so heavy Im getting through a pack of ten Ultra tampons in a working day. Not unusual to use 130-150 tampons (not including pads) for one period. I have to sleep in incontinence pants and set three alarms at night to go to the bathroom.

Ive had a hysteroscopy/ HSG/ laparoscopy done, all showed nothing. It’s ruining my fucking life. Everyone’s off having their babies, and I’m driving home from work in tears and sat on a carrier bag. I work in the construction industry and often have no access to toilets. I have to change tampons in the back of my work van if I can’t get to an Asda or Tesco fast enough.

I went to my clinic for a scan today ready to start my next ivf cycle. I’m on CD37 and still bleeding. They won’t start anything until I’ve had another hysteroscopy and told me to go back to my GP for a new gynea referral. I’ll be retired before that ever came through. I’m completely broke, I don’t have £2k for a hysteroscopy. I’ve been looking online to see if I can get it done abroad for less.

This will sound dramatic to some but I can’t live like this. I’m so desperate to be a mum and the failure is making me suicidal. If I could just have one baby I’d never ask for more, and I would be first in line for a hysterectomy.

No point to this thread, just in a very shitty place right now. Why can’t my body just be normal and work like everyone else’s 😭😭

I'll be blunt as you need speed! I had this as I wasn't ovulating. Am I presuming that because you're having ivf you're not overweight which was the cause of my issues. Have you been on the pill to try and settle things down which I know feels against what you're trying to do. I flooded continually for 4 years.

My bmi is 27, so no one has mentioned it. If I thought the pill would help I’d probably try it, my only reservation was it took me a year to get my periods back when I first came off it. Then again with all the jabs maybe that would take control of it, I just don’t know 😪

That sounds so difficult OP. I’m sorry I don’t have advice but wishing you well.

Sorry your going through such a difficult time op. I understand you in a sense. I have pcos and in the past I've had super long bleeding spells. I recall one of them I bled for few days , then it stopped for about a week then I bled again 3 weeks straight. I had to be put on iron as I was extremely fatigued.
We've been trying 17 years and finally last month we conceived but ended in a chemical which I bled really heavily for 2 weeks and I'm back on iron and just getting over the exhaustion.
I've just turned 37 and I know how much more stressful it is at this age . Everyone around me is falling pregnant just like that and I'm the only one yet to have a child. It's not easy. Have your bloods came back normal ?
wouldnt bother my arse with gp. Itll take you forever to get a referral through. Get onto the secretary of a nhs gynae at a local hospital. you can pay for a private gynae app , somewhere around £200, might vary but then you can just be put onto the nhs waiting list for the procedure straight away. It'll be much quicker than going through gp . If you can afford it do it that way