Hey guys, thanks so much to everyone who has replied here 🙏
I feel so guilty coming back with this update but in case anyone in a similar situation finds this I feel I should... I'm now 6 months pregnant. I'm obviously not completely out of the woods yet as I don't have my baby in my arms, but Ive just hit 'viability' so I'm feeling positive.
So it was a complete whirlwind, I posted this in desperation early sept. As sept progressed things got worse, I hit the due date of my first pregnancy the same week that I got a private endo consultantion (a specialist clinic in London - £400) which diagnosed me with severe and deep endo, fibroids and polyps. I was advised not to have surgery on my endo or cyst in case it further depleted my ovarian reserve, but was advised to get the polyp removed as these can cause miscarriage. I was also advised to consider egg freezing asap and pursue IVF. I was devest by how quickly it all escalated, but basically by paying that £400 for the private consultation I was then able to go to the NHS with all the info I had and get an immediate fertility referral.
I was i a complete daze with it all, then I got another positive test at the end of sept... At first I was kind of devestated because I had been trying to arrange this polyp removal, so I just felt utterly convinced that I would miscarry because I hadn't been able to do that yet..I was told if I made it to 12 weeks the polyp wouldn't cause an issue after that. So between that and the endo increasing MC risk I just felt hopeless and spent a lot of the first few months crying and feeling so so sure the loss was coming.
The weeks ticked by, and somehow I made it to 12 weeks (boy did I sob at that scan).
For anyone reading this who is in a similar position - I'm so so sorry you're there, I've never found anything more frightening and overwhelming in my life than the prospect of infertility... My advice is, find out all the information you can on your conditions and use it to push the NHS like hell to support you. Because of my diagnosis I was able to get prescribed progesterone and aspirin after two miscarriages, not 3. I have no idea if that made the difference, but this is the first time I've had that stuff and the first pregnancy that continued...
I also don't know whether this pregnancy was just pure luck or not, like I still think I might really struggle to get baby #2 and don't know what the onward journey is... But for now, incredibly grateful and wishing everyone else on this thread so much love