After losing our desperately wanted baby girl in January following a TFMR I took the time to heal and this month we decided to TTC again.
its been a tricky decision as we have our wedding in October but being 42 time is not on my side and I decided I would rather be pregnant on my wedding day than wait and miss out entirely. Anyway I got my head together and all was okay but then my period was two days late and a bunch of other symptoms made me feel like maybe I could be pregnant this month. I knew it was very unlikely with my age but it was the same symptoms as before and so hard to not think it could be a possibility.
However, today as I was out I realised my period was coming on and I was so upset. I felt so frustrated with myself for thinking that it would be anything more but it just made me realise how much I wanted it. We are very lucky to have our beautiful little girl who turns 4 this year but I just sometimes feel so lonely with the pain of what I’ve been through/going through that I need to vent! Thank you for listening and any advice would be much appreciated xx