Hi everyone,
Apologies in advance for this self-indulgent pitiful thread 😩 I just have to talk about it to people who understand 😵💫
I'm currently 15DPO and a day late for AF. Have done the following tests (like a crazy woman):
9DPO: easy@home - BFN
10DPO: easy@home - BFN
11DPO: easy@home - BFN
12DPO late morning: easy@home - BFN
12DPO early evening: FRER - BFN
13DPO: (no test)
14DPO: easy@home - BFN
15DPO mid morning: FRER - BFN
15DPO midday: easy@home - BFN
My periods are usually very regular. I've tracked them with an app since 2010 and I get AF on the predicted date 98% of the time.
Been ttc for the best part of 2.5 years. Had one mc at 7 weeks and a couple of breaks, fertility tests and scans with no obvious issues.
When I got my BFP in April 2021 we were on a ttc break and I didn't test until I was four days late for AF as I was convinced I was about to come on, so was 18DPO according to the app (test results attached of this for reference if it's even relevant).
If I hadn't had the BFP last year I wouldn't even be thinking there was a chance right now as I was literally certain I was about to come on. It was like I had my period with everything except the bleeding. I feel like that now despite overwhelming evidence to the contrary 😭
Surely a FRER would have picked up any pregnancy by now! My logical mind knows that. But my heart says 'oh but what about women who don't get BFPs for days or even weeks after a missed period!' and it just keeps me hanging on in crazy land. I'd accepted at 13DPO I was coming on and out again so didn't bother testing but nope! Here I am still 🥴
I'm so tired and jaded. I'm surrounded by babies and toddlers with friends and family and I just feel like damaged goods. I'm so over the endless mindf*ck of it all every month!
I know most of you feel the same so thank you for reading if you've got this far ♥️ sending shedloads of much-deserved baby dust ✨✨