Help Ttc after miscarriage confused

[rmummyofone]

Hello everyone
I recently went through a miscarriage on the 8th of this month I found out and chose to get medical help as it had been a week already and no signs of anything happening. I was 10+3 when I found out but the baby was measuring 8-9 weeks.
I took some OPKs and pregnancy tests today. I expected the pregnancy test to come out positive as it's not even been over 10 days since I started bleeding. But one of the opks came out blazing positive?
Green is one step OPK
Blue is HCG
Pink is femometer OPK (my go to)

Is it even possible to ovulate while there is hcg present?

I wouldn’t have said so, I know LH is also high when pregnant so maybe it’s still the previous pregnancy showing up. Sorry for your loss it completely sucks x

@Cakesnbiscuit thanks, it really does.
I feel like I can't move forward though I know I should..
thanks for responding though :)

I know what you mean, I have recently had a medical termination and it broke my heart. It was by far the hardest thing I have ever been through and I can imagine it’s the same for a miscarriage.

The grieving is by far the worst, seeing pregnant people or little babies. I know my would have been due date and I think I’m going to be mess. I just keep thinking if I could be pregnant by then maybe it will make it easier.

I am still testing positive on my tests too and I cried as it’s the only thing that proves they were real. Life is just so shit at times.

@Cakesnbiscuit me too..
I keep thinking how difficult it's going to be when that date comes and exactly the same I hope to be pregnant by then it may ease the burden
Though I feel like nothing could ever replace them, they're special too.
It feels like I'm in my own nightmare. Everyday, even when I'm feeling ok I'm feeling so guilty.

Sending you lots and lots of baby dust and I'm here to talk to you if you need someone to vent to!

@rmummyofone I’m so scared to ttc again as the heartbreaking decision was due to my health and there was a chance I wouldn’t have made it through the pregnancy. Think I need to focus on me for a while get better than speak to consultants and understand risk factors before we consider another. This might be it for us though, no more babies as it’s not worth the risk.

Completely get the guilt and the what ifs. If I could have only done this or pushed for this etc. you can drive yourself crazy. I feel like I let my baby down, they will always be my baby and it’s been suggested to get something to remember them. There’s lots of things online or plants etc but I just cry every time I search.

Probably still too early for the both of us, it’s very raw. Just know that you did nothing wrong. You have nothing to feel guilty about.