Really low point, need some motivation

[Ttcaftermmc]

Been ttc for 3 years, finally fell late last year only
to find I had a mmc at my 12 week scan in December. Had my first period and tracked ovulation since day 10, currently day 25 and had 1 day of pretty dark negatives but not a single positive! Obviously a part of me is convincing myself the dark negative was enough and in a weeks time l’ll have that positive test but realistically I know this won’t happen.

I really can’t believe after my perfect scan and seeing the heartbeat last year that I’m now stuck back in this awful cycle of not ovulating and convincing myself that this is the month! Just doesn’t seem fair and I’m feeling really low tonight

So sorry to hear you're going through a tough time, it must be so draining.

Only thing I can say is, I used OPKs when I was TTC my son and the month I got pregnant never got a positive. I was getting really stressed about it but think the tests just aren't that accurate. I wouldn't assume you're not ovulating just based on the tests.

Good luck, I really hope you get your happy ending soon.

Thank you so much for replying @Gabby82 and that’s so comforting to know not to solely rely on them!

My main frustration is that I know from fertility tests prior to my pregnancy last year that I haven’t been ovulating (or rarely anyway) and was put on Clomid but on my break from Clomid that’s when I fell pregnant so it’s all so conflicting, I obviously can and do ovulate at times, but then also don’t at times! So then I’m stuck between torturing myself testing ovulation because I know I’m likely not too, but then if I don’t test and don’t fall pregnant I’ll beat myself up from not testing.

I applaud you if that made any sense whatsoever ever, I’m just on this really miserable cycle in my own mind tonight, I need a good nights sleep and a shake and to get a positive head on tomorrow!

I can't give you motivation but I can say you are not alone 💗. 2 years, one MMC, lack of ovulation here too. I'm sorry.

Are you getting any fertility help? I'm soon to start letrozole

@TheDaydreamBelievers ah so sorry to hear you’re going through this too! When do you start letrozole?

I had 3 rounds of Clomid prior to the pregnancy, 2 ‘worked’ in the sense I produced a large follicle each time, one round was unsuccessful! I was on a break from it while I waited to speak to the consultant about introducing a trigger shot for my final 3 rounds when I fell pregnant, luckily the NHS fertility clinic I’m under are amazing and as soon as I called to let them know about the miscarriage they reinstated me so I have an appointment in April to discuss beginning Clomid and trigger shots so I’m definitely feeling positive for that but I just can’t shake this unfair feeling that I’m even back in this position all over again!

Whenever my next period arrives @Ttcaftermmc. So... Sometime in the next 6mo?