Hand hold please!

[SareBear87]

So, bit of background so please bear with me!

DP and I started ttc Dec 19. C2 we had a BFP, but that ended in a chemical (I'd tested early and AF showed 1 day late), C6 another BFP but miscarried at 5+2, C8 another BFP but sadly ended in a MMC discovered at my 12-week scan. To add to the misery I haemorrhaged after having medical management and had to have an ERPC and 2 units of blood. I was super drained by this point, mentally and physically. I was super lucky and my cycle returned just before Christmas so we cracked on not wanting to waste time (I'm 35, DP is 46).

So that brings me to today. I've felt off. Not sick, but off. No real reason why but my gut said POAS. I did and it's a frickin BFP! My first reaction was joy, followed by fear, followed by excitement, followed by nerves (you get the idea!).

Basically I need a hand to hold! I haven't told DP yet and I'm not 100% sure when AF is actually due but I'd guess I'm around 8-10dpo, so I'm early.

Positive vibes please ladies! I'm not sure I can deal with more heartbreak!!! I really hope this one sticks!

Congratulations and sending you the best of luck that it’s successful!! It’s a difficult journey! Wishing you all the best!

Congrats and fingers crossed 🤞 for you op.

I'm in a similar boat, been trying for around 6 years. Started fertility treatment with the NHS but then moved and then lockdown hit so it all would have been cancelled anyway. Lost 3. Got a faint, faint line this morning. Its hard to be excited because I just think it what if it goes the same way.

The fertility doctor gave me inositol as a supplement, she gave me a trial pack and I've been buying it and taking it since, but funnily enough, since I gave up with it and was looking into early menopause, this happened! I hadn't had a period since a mc in April last year.

Huge congratulations! So sorry to hear of your previous losses that must have been so hard. I also had a mmc last year and am 7 weeks pregnant now so feeling pretty similar to you - incredibly happy, trying to be optimistic but terrified!! Take one day at a time. Sending you all the positive vibes xx

Congrats! I understand the fear. Sending you so much strength and hope xxx

Congratulations! Sorry for your previous losses. Can you speak to your doctor/ early pregnancy unit for some reassurance and to see if they can provide anything to help since you have had three miscarriages?

Hi @SareBear87 congratulations on your BFP. The nerves are understandable.

There are a good few of us here with similar experiences. Many of us tend to hang out on the ttc after mc thread (think we are currently on thread 5). Very fast moving thread with lots of chat and people in various stages of their journey

Hoping for a sticky bean for you xx

Thanks all! I'm just terrified that it's going to end in heartbreak again. I'm trying not to reach for the pg tests!

@Passenger87 oh really? I'll have a look. I came off MM/social media in Oct because I just couldn't deal with the chat/announcements, but feeling miles better now, so I'll check it out.

@Charl881 we we're referred in Oct but our first appt. Isn't until mid-April (ruddy covid delays!) and I didn't expect anything to happen in 2 cycles (we had always planned to miss cycles in Mar/Apr due to Dec/Jan due dates anyway)