Hi all, I’m 39 and my DH is 38, we have been seriously TTC since middle of last year. My DH always said he didn’t want a child and was happy with my girls but now they are older, youngest 16, he has admitted that he does want us to have a child he just felt there was too much on our plates when my girls were younger, so we haven’t intentionally left it until time is seriously running out it’s just how things have panned out. My eldest daughter was very ill with anorexia for 3 years, this consumed a lot of our time and energy and my DH was wonderful and so supportive to my DD and I. I have 3 children from my previous marriage but my DH has no children and we desperately want a child together, I desperately want to give him a child he so deserves after being an amazing Dad to my girls. I got my BFP in October 2021, we were over the moon. Sadly I started spotting at 8 weeks, went for a private scan, was told measuring 5-6 weeks, could have dates wrong (I knew I didn’t, I knew what was happening but still kept a glimmer of hope) booked a follow up scan for 2 weeks later. Spotting started to become heavier a couple of days before the follow up scan. This scan showed no further growth from previous scan and no heart beat 💔. Finally started to bleed properly the week of Christmas and I passed fetus, still in sac on Christmas Eve 😔. Although devastated, we both felt some closure from actually seeing our little bean. We were both very depressed, my DH suffered terribly, I felt so so sad for him. We both decided to start TTC again strait away, I am 40 in 6 weeks and we feel like we are on our last chance, thought we had been lucky with miracle baby in October 😔. I have been waiting for my periods to return to normal since MC, had light bleed in Jan at time period was due but nothing like my normal period. 2 weeks go my period started again, was normal flow and lasted 5 days, normal for me. So now it’s been a week since that ended. We have been DTD every day, I have had sore boobs and been a bit grumpy and tired for the past 2 days, yesterday I had a tiny amount of brown spotting, light lower abdominal cramps, today a tiny amount of pink spotting when I wiped and again after DTD. I’m not thinking I’m pregnant as only a week after my period ended but could this be ovulation symptoms? I’m so desperate to get back to regular cycles, We are desperate for our rainbow 🌈 baby. I’m also very scared, I’m scared we’ve left it too late, that my egg quality is bad and I could MC again, I’m scared that I may never get pregnant again. I know there are many lovely ladies out there in the same and worse positions than I am. I’m lucky and thankful for my 3 DD and my DH has been such a wonderful Dad to them, he deserves a child so much and I’m scared of not being able to give him one. He’s such a lovely man, he always tells me that he loves me so much and he’s happy with me and my DDs but I know deep down he craves a child of his own and I want a child with him so much. Sorry for the long post but and help and advise would be appreciated, I drive myself nuts googling symptoms, it’s nice to hear from real people with their own real experiences. Thank you 🙏