Just as the title says tbh, feeling a bit all over. I think I'm around 4 weeks but haven't been tracking my periods (I've just finished breastfeeding my two year old so they are irregular anyway).
I have some mild cramping and keep feeling the need to poo (sorry tmi)! Worried its ectopic or another mc. I've had suspected ectopic in the past which turned out to be our 3rd miscarriage. First mc was late (second trimester) and second was fairly early. Then I had a healthy baby boy who is the light of my life.
I'm excited and happy, as is my partner, but I also feel incredibly meh about it all which is making me feel very guilty. I think I'm waiting for it to go wrong. We had so many mcs and difficulties to have my son that this time I can't see how it could be this easy ? I'm sorry if that's insensitive to anyone who is struggling, I'm finding it difficult to put my emotions into words. I guess I won't really believe it until I see some form of scan. We have decided to not tell anyone until we at least see a heartbeat.
Not even sure why I'm posting on here either. I just know how much of a source of comfort you wonderful lot were during our years of issues.