Hey all,
Have come to the conclusion my body hates me and I need to just learn that it likes playing tricks on me.
As I have mentioned in my previous posts, my periods are pretty irregular due to suspected endometriosis/adenomyosis. So I have never been regular since I started at the age of 12 when I started my periods, unless I am on the pill. In reality I should of known better then to get my hopes up but it still sucks.
My past couple of cycles have been bang on 21 days and this is our first cycle TTC.
So when my period did not show on Saturday I got a bit excited because I thought he t I might have got lucky. Then I got nausea and vomiting, fatigue, lower back pain, and some other symptoms alongside it. I genuinely felt like I was pregnant (have had two MC's in the past and so I felt similar to that). Then go join in on Monday I started spotting which I never do before my period starts. It was only a little bit when I wiped.
Flo had been telling me that I was due on today and to test if AF did appear although it seems a bit confused this month as it has been saying to test in 17 days if my period does not arrive today. Well it's been counting down days since I ovulated but not sure why it's told me 17 days time is when I should test. Although I did change it to TTC mode at the start of January this year.
I woke up this morning in desperate need of a pee and so I went to the bathroom and when I wiped it appears my period has arrived right on queue like Flo predicted.
I have spent the past few days getting my hopes up and being excited, only to wake up and realise my AF had arrived. So I now feel sad and like I got my hopes up for no reason. I know it sounds silly but having the conditions I have, it's highly likely I will never be able to conceive naturally and so I get excited at the smallest chance I could be pregnant
This probably sounds really silly but I just feel ready to give up al hope before I have even started properly.