Fed up!!

[whymewhyme]

I don't know why I'm posting, I think I just need to talk to like minded people.

I'm losing my shit, I feel like I'm cracking up...ttc is all I think about, talk about, read about, google it's all consuming.

I am totaly in tune with the app and I always ovulate at the predicted time, i also do the clear blue digital ovulation tests and occasionaly the cheap easy@home. Anyway this month i decided i needed a break from pissing on sticks. I've stepped away from the app, not pissed on sticks multiple times aday and i have to day my head feels better for it!!
However, I had 2 clear blue test left do i decided to test on friday to just make sure I was deffinatly ovulating when the app said i am. Well.... turns out i wasn't fertile on friday after all...confusing!! I've tested again today and again...not fertile so i think i must of ovulated early and I've missed the opportunity so i know I'm out already as we haven't had sex at the right time. I realllly wish I tested now, im so fed up and annoyed with myself!!

God it's so so hard 😫

Sending virtual support… I’m similarly very fed up. I’m mainly annoyed with myself for getting so obsessed with it, I wish I could just flick a switch in my mind and stop thinking about it for a couple of months.

It’s so so tough.

You never know, you might not be out if you don’t know when you ovulate. I always find this but the toughest, once AF has arrived in more positive and excited for a new cycle, but the waiting is horrible especially when you think you’re out, you just want to fast forward to next fertile window.