Hi all,
I am lucky enough to have two children already, who are 12 and 9. I’m 37. If circumstances had been different, we would have gone for baby number 3 earlier. Although I had sort of accepted we were ‘done’, deep down I was sad about it and my partner felt the same, I think.
Anyway, we had a contraception failure (condom) and presumed that I’d go and get the MAP as this was obviously not planned. But, to my utter surprise, when we talked it through, my partner and I have come to the conclusion that I won’t get it, and what will be will be… I think the prospect of it has cemented the fact that we’d both really like it to happen.
But. I am now driving myself crazy. I already have two kids, age is not on my side etc. I know that statistically I am so, so unlikely to get pregnant this cycle. And yet I can’t help doing exactly what I did last time and looking at baby stuff, thinking of names, Googling symptoms etc. I was so, so fortunate last time to get pregnant first month of trying for both babies.
I am not kidding myself that this will happen now, and I am trying so hard to stop myself overthinking, but it has really brought home to me how much I would love a third baby. Especially now I know my partner is on board.
But I feel so guilty when I know others are struggling. Argh. Too many emotions and I still have ages until I can test.
Sorry for the long rant. We are not telling anyone IRL. Thanks for reading.