Hi,
Firstly I am not sure if this is the right thread so apologies if not.
Secondly I am just seeking some support for my overwhelmingly stressed and confused head.
A brief background I am a mum of two 16 yo boy and 5 yo boy. I am also a mum to severe allergies angel babies. I am almost 42 and suffer will depression and anxiety.
My question to myself is do I want another baby.
I am so torn. I ache for the whole experience again, choosing the pram, scans, the sheer move and joy as well as the sleepless nights, colic, nappies etc.
my worry is that I feel maybe I am feeling this way because my fertility and baby making days are coming to an end. I suffer with mental health and worry that adding another child to the mix could be very detrimental to me but with support I managed before.
I also fear always living with the what if’s and wishing I had another. My boys are 11 years apart hence the distance between them. My eldest is not what I thought he would be rarely wants ti be with his brother. My youngest craves a sibling relationship although I feel would be jealous. I am so torn and wonder if anyone has been in a similar situation.
Much love. X