Terrible pms since ttc

[fairgame84]

I'm such a cowbag as soon as the stomach cramps set in. I don't know if it is actually pms or pure anger/frustration that we've got another failed cycle. I'm struggling. We're on cycle 13 and I'm really finding it hard to keep going through this. The few days between the cramps and af starting are the worst. I just hate who I am right now. We're meant to be saving for ivf but I feel like throwing in the towel and going back on the pill. I don't even want ivf, I'm only doing it for dh.

Sorry for the rant 😞

I've had almost constant nausea for 3 days now, I can barely eat. It was never this bad before ttc. Maybe I'm just more aware of all my pms symptoms. I can't wait to finish this whole ttc thing. I just want to have a baby and live my life, not go through all this stress and anxiety for years.