Feeling neutral - Positive test after miscarriages

[Mondaymonday249]

Hi all.
After a number of miscarriages, I have a positive pregnancy test. I feel very much neutral and disengaged despite being completely obsessed in the past with ttc and getting a positive test. Has anyone had these types of feelings before?

Yes definitely. We had this, and in fact we're more scared and worried. This has really only just changed a bit after 16 weeks where DH says "maybe we can believe it now"
It's self preservation

Yep exact them same here too. BFP for 3rd time but didn't feel anything towards it well, didn't allow myself too. Nearly 20 weeks now and feeling a small amount of movement and although I am deep down so excited and speak about it that bit more still can't quite bring myself to get really really excited or buy anything.

@minster2012 I can understand that. I definitely thought worry would be my first feeling. Instead it's apathy. It must be self preservation as you say.

That's brilliant you're at 16 weeks. Hope you can begin to feel more positive soon. I completely understand.

@WJK00 yes, that's how I feel. Normally I test repeatedly, compare lines, obsess over symptoms etc. But I've just put the tests in a drawer. Thanks for sharing. Best of luck for the rest of your pregnancy. I hope you can manage to find some calm and enjoyment in the time ahead. X

Was in the same boat a few years ago and didn't allow myself any excitement until baby was born! Didn't take many photos while pregnant either as I was too afraid. Easier said than done, but please try to relax a bit and enjoy the moment.

Yes, yes, yes... Its your minds way of protecting you from more heart ache a little...
I was very flat after found out pregnant after miscarriage.. To extent nurse who told me asked if I wanted to talk about options 😢

When I explained.. She said it was very common and to let myself settle.. That hopefully it'd be fine... But as weeks went buy I'd be more confident... She was right.. I dared to dream after 20 weeks and started to smile at 30...all fine for me, I was blessed.
I wish you luck

Whatever you are feeling is right, there is no wrong. I have everything crossed this is the one for you

Thanks for the support, everyone. X

@Mondaymonday249 so sorry for your losses. I'm in a very similar position to you. CP last month and miscarriages previously (though extremely fortunate to have a DS 2 years ago) and after a positive test last week (now 5+3) I just feel completely "meh". Totally disengaged. As a pp has said, it's a self preservation thing - Just protecting ourselves from further heartache.
Everything crossed for you this time around, and here if you want to chat x

Yep. Two miscarriages last year and I'm now 28+2 but a complete wreck still.