I gave up TTC months ago, but this is the first month I feel peaceful about it

[PeeAche]

Just a support thread really. And maybe it will offer some comfort to others who wonder if they'll ever be able to get off this merry go round.

It's been far too long. Far too many OPKs, pregnancy tests, miscarriages, tears and GP visits.

I'm not going to be able to conceive a child and that's finally okay. It will always be sad but I'm just so exhausted.

I officially "gave up" a few months ago, but all that really meant was that I stopped charting. This month is the first time I have also stopped obsessing. Peace.

I'm glad you found peace and I'm sorry it hasn't happened for you

I've given up opks, apps and early testing. We're only cycle 10 so still got a few fertility appointments to go (I'm over 35) but we're trying to get the point where if it's meant to be then it will happen.

Have you got any tips to stop thinking about it? I know when I ovulate due to pains and cm and I'm fine until af is almost due and then I'm constantly thinking about when I can test etc. I wish I could stop it being on my mind.

Well done for finding peace in that situation and I’m sorry your journey hasn’t worked out. Do you mind me asking how old you are, how long you tried for, how did you reach the decision to stop etc?

We have been TTC for 18 months now with nothing, all tests have come back as normal so starting to think about whether we give up or go down the fertility clinic route. The thought of it all consumes my brain all day everyday, I’d love to just be at peace with my current situation and not long to be pregnant, but it’s just not happening.

@fairgame84 It really is just giving it time. Also, stop keeping pregnancy tests in the house! They're just too tempting...

@Nearlymyturn I tried for 3 years with my ex husband when I was in my early twenties. I'm 33 now and my DH and I have been trying for around 3 years also. I've had clomid but no other treatments as my infertility is "unexplained".

Thanks 😊
DH doesn't allow me to buy tests unless I'm late so there's no temptation.
We know that we definitely don't want to go down the ivf/icsi route so I guess once I've had my hycosy that's it for us and I think that will help me put it to the back of my mind. I hope.