Don't know how to feel?

[BelleBox19]

I'd like to start by saying I struggled for 3 years to become pregnant with my son, and was in the worst place of my life mentally during infertility due to PCOS.

I had awful PND that I'm not even sure I'm fully over. I'm on sertraline and now I want to stop it as I'm paranoid about the effect on the baby (I know it's probably the safest one but I'm still worried).

My son is 15 months and my period is what I think is a few days late... I just tested at 5:30 pm with a clear blue line test and its blazing positive and the digital too. I'm now telling myself it has to be twins! I'm also terrified that I don't feel pregnant aside from being a bit tired.

We were planning on having another baby in the next year or 2 but this is a shock - we got pregnant awaiting IVF before and I naively just didn't think I would get pregnant again. We DTD once unprotected, obviously just at the right time.

I don't even know why I'm posting! I know how much of a blessing this is and we're so lucky to be pregnant but I'm just feeling so sad for my son that he might be overshadowed by this baby and miss out on being the only one for a while. He's such an amazing wee guy and I just adore him .

Going by dates I'm about 4w5d - should a test be this pos right now!? X

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Wow that is super strong did you do a weeks indicator test at all? X

No, annoyingly the pack only had a preg/not preg indicator :( along with the two stick ones! My test with my son was so faint at 4w I didn't even believe it! X

If you're late I would expect it to look like that. I wish more people would wait for their period before testing.

I hope it's the result you want.

I dont think I have ever seen a clear blue that dark and I have been on this site for 3 years. Hopefully you can get a clear blue weeks indicator and see what it says. Are you certain you ovulate when you think you did and not sooner? Xx

I've only had 2 periods since I stopped breastfeeding and they were 35, 30 and this one so I think historically once my cycles regulated (after trying every PCOS supplement/diet/exercise) it was actually 28 days. Last period started on 28th Aug so actually if this one was going to be 28 days then I would be further along. I just checked my app and I noted a lot of unexpected EWCM on the 4th and 5th sept 🙈. I couldn't even tell you when we DTD - I've been very stressed and all of us including baba had a really bad non-covid cold xx

Well I hope you have a happy 9 months and all Is well with you and that its a sticky bean xx

Aww congratulations!

They will be so close agewise, they will be great friends! That's what I wished but unfortunately hasn't happened yet.

Thank you everyone

Feeling a little better mentally today! Although, I think I jinxed myself as I now feel, sick, tired and my boobs hurt! 🙈

@dutchessmom

I'm not going to say 'it'll happen..etc' as I know how annoying that can be when ttc!

Keep faith, look at my story. I'm still shocked 💕

Sending baby dust xx

Update is I've just done CB weeks indicator and it's 3+. This is at 6:20pm!

Checks out if I'm about 6 weeks but again, with my son I think I was at least 8-10 weeks before I got a 3+.

Ahh, what if it's twins!?

Oh my gosh how exciting please update when you have scans etc I am so super excited for you that is amazing xxx

Congratulations! I had a very similar journey where if took 4 years and 2 full rounds of ICSI to have my first. It was hard work and I’m sure I had PND.

DD was older (2.5) when I conceived but it happened naturally within a month or two of trying. And I conceived twins!

Every thread I’ve read where someone was convinced they were having twins turned out to be a singleton so I’m sure it will be the same for you. If by a small chance it is twins you’ll manage!