Gawd. Longish story.
DH and I had always said that, once dd2 was 2 we would review the options and discuss whether or not we wanted a third. She turned 2 in July and DH was anti another for mainly financial/practical reasons, and I went along with it, since am not getting any younger (38) and was starting to enjoy the benefits of a full night's sleep, return of long-absent braincells etc. However, I must admit I would have been equally happy with a 'yes' vote.
We'd been using condoms as contraception until a firm decision was made on this, but I didn't particularly want to go back on the pill at my age and didn't fancy the alternatives, so we carried on in that way - until, 2 and a half weeks ago, a condom split. I didn't want to get the morning after pill from my GP, so tried my local pharmacy - who were all out! No worries, I thought, and made an appt. with my GP for the next day, vaguely thinking that I could sort the whole contraception issue out then as well (and not realising that the efficacy of the M.A.pill is reduced if not taken within 24 hours of intercourse).
Saw GP, got M.A. pill, didn't sort out other contraception as he was concerned that my b.p. might be too high (I had run all the way to the surgery, mind you). Took M.A. pill...and would you believe....ANOTHER condom split 2 days later. What are the chances, eh? (Higher than I realise, probably).
M.A. pill can't be taken twice in the same menstrual cycle, and I figured that the one I had recently taken would probably have effed up my ovulation anyway, so I just left it and crossed my fingers.
Now, 2 weeks later, I am stupidly, hormonally emotional and acting just the way I did with my pregnancies - irrational weeping at anything (happy or sad) involving babies and children, mild depression, tiredness, dragging heavy pain in the lower abdomen. Could all just be pre-menstrual, maybe, but I have been bleeding for the last ten days in what I presumed would be a pill-related eff up of my cycle. But could it be something else?
I've read that conception after taking the m.a. pill (in the same cycle) makes you more vulnerable to ectopic pregnancy, so I suppose my head is full of all this 'am I? aren't I? is it ectopic? is it just pms?' nonsense.
Bottom line - it's too early to know for sure of course, but I will feel bereft if it turns out I am not pregnant. Does anyone have a similar experience to share (longshot I know). Could I be pregnant? Or not?