Hi ladies,
unfortunately my first cycle of ivf has failed. I asked them to call my husband with the blood test results because I can’t handle any more devastation. I got my period this morning.
My clinic, Adora, doesn’t do genetic testing. I have 2 frozen embryos and have made an appointment with a prof at IVF Australia next week to discuss transferring my embryos to them for testing and FET. I am not sure I could handle 3 rounds of failed cycles. I feel like this is the end of the road in terms of options.
I am very lucky to have a 3 year old daughter. I feel pregnant easily with her after an ectopic where I lost a Fallopian tube. I honestly think she is a miracle. Her birth was extremely traumatic and I was close to passing on the day from blood loss. 3 weeks later I still had retained product so I needed to have it removed in surgery. My blood pressure dropped so low they didn’t think I was going to wake up. She was posterior so I had forceps, a broken tailbone and an episiotomy. The whole thing was a disaster and performed by a doctor in training. My body is destroyed and I feel that the option of having another child has been taken from me.
Since her birth 3 years ago I have had 6 surgeries as I was diagnosed with ashermans syndrome. I didn’t get a period for 18 months. I have been trying for a baby for those 18 months now. My ashermans syndrome was cleared by a very renowned Prof in Sydney. My last hysteroscopy with him was in July and he said I am cleared thinks I will be pregnant soon. It’s been 2 cycles since and nothing.
I know I am lucky to have a child but secondary infertility and all of these obstacles is so hard. All of my friends have finished their families. I am 34 and I’m losing hope fast. I feel so much sadness for women who don’t have living children who want one.
I don’t even know what my question is. I guess hopeful stories for ivf. I feel like stopping now because I am not sure I can handle the heartache of another failed cycle. I had 2 false positives on FR tests this morning so I am feeling broken that it’s failed. I guess when you are looking down the barrel of ivf you literally put all of your eggs in the basket and think that it might just work.