Hello,
Sorry for the long post, I just feel I need to get this off my chest.
In early July I found out it was pregnant with my first baby.
2 weeks later I experience some cramp and bleeding and I called EPAU and was booked in for a scan a few days later. During my appointment I was told that I was expecting twins and both were measuring around 6.5 weeks and seemed to be in the correct position etc. I was delighted at this news, and all my anxieties settled. I was booked in for another scan 2 weeks later to identify which type of twins I was carrying.
Sadly at my second scan I was told that I had a missed miscarriage. I was completely devastated and opted for surgical management as I did not feel able to cope with waiting for things to happen naturally. I was booked in for my procedure 1 week later.
On the day of my appointment, I had 3 sets of bloods taken and given a bed on the gynaecology ward. When the doctor arrived for my procedure, I had another scan and was told that the pregnancy tissue has moved to the left of my womb and was very close to my Fallopian tube. The surgery was cancelled and I was asked to stay overnight and have another procedure under general anaesthetic.
My surgery eventually went ahead the next day and I was told that I had a bicornuate (heart shaped) womb. I was also told that I am rheusus negative and given the anti-D injection.
After doing a google search , I am now terrified that I won't be able to have a successful pregnancy in the future. It seems that I should have been given the injection when I first bled and I may now have created antibodies which will make any future pregnancy risky. It also seems that the shape of my womb will also make things more tricky, and I just feel that the odds are completely against me (also in mid thirties).
I have struggled emotionally with this miscarriage, and honestly feel that I wouldn't cope if it happened again. But the thought of not having a baby is just as bad, and I feel that I would be letting my husband down.
I am angry at everything right now. All I see is people having "easy" pregnancies and overhearing friends talking about school runs and potty training and it makes me furious that I might never have that despite it meaning so much to me.
Has anyone else experienced a similar situation and had a positive outcome ? Or any words of wisdom they can share?