Struggling after miscarriage

[Krimson]

I had a missed miscarriage at the end of February and have struggled to get pregnant since. I had a chemical pregnancy last month and started my periods few days later and have been referred to the recurrent miscarriage clinic.

I am 34 and worried time is running out and have constant worries about being an old mum, that I'll be at least 35 by the time I have my first child if I do manage to have one and how old I'll be after that.

I get angry and regretful I left it too late and worry there is something wrong with me. It happened so quickly the first time as well. I wish I could turn back time and get so angry when I see people get pregnant so quickly and have had 3 baby announcements recently. I hate being told too "relax" and "what's meant to be will be". I can't see how I can relax when I worry so much about my age.

Since my chemical last month I've had on-going cramps yet dismissed by my GP, it just feeds into me that there is something wrong and I'll never have a baby.

@Krimson I'm in a similar position and feel your pain!! The whole thing is very unfair.

When I was in the exact position you are, I got pregnant straight after the CP. I was feeling like there was no hope but it can happen.

Good luck.

I was 38 when I had my first and second trimester at nearly 41 with second , after 4 mcs. It is brutal. Some people have an easy journey, others have to fight to conceive. I used to think why me but then why not? It’s got to be someone.
I had an immune issue it looks like so could get pregnant fine but mc a lot. It seems my body attacked the embryos after bfp. I took a tonne of meds and this one has hung on 🙏
Have you had a fertility check up for you and your partner to make sure you’re both all healthy? We did all that privately. Too long on nhs. You do seem to get pregnant and so it might literally be very bad luck and the next one will stick.
I made sure my dh and I were as healthy as possible, no alcohol, both took supplements as recommended in ‘ it starts with the egg’
I did a low carb diet etc I’m sure it will happen for you naturally but you can always explore ivf and other options after ttc for a bit longer

Thank you all for your messages. We haven't had checks yet but have been referred to the miscarriage clinic. It's hard to relax with the worry of fertility and my age and being an old mum hanging over me. I wish I wasn't so resentful as well of leaving it too long