Another tww. Anyone else feeling down/emotional?

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So I'm 1dpo again today. I'm feeling awful tbh. Really depressed and down. I had a mmc in January and a chemical last month.
I started this cycle optimistic and eager but now the thought of another tww and symptom spotting etc is making me just want to curl up into a ball and hide away. I've been really snappy and tearful today. I know I'll be ok I just hate this part.
Just wanted a rant really and see if anyone else was feeling the same so we could support each other through this mine field

So sorry to hear @Sparrowsong fingers crossed for next cycle for you

@DappledOliveGroves I feel a huge hypocrite saying this but you're still early. Don't count yourself out yet. If you do however find the secret to being zen during ttc please let me know 😂

I tested again last night secretly. I promised oh I'd hold off till af was due. Anyway the test was negative till about 3 minutes but then I heard him coming upstairs so threw it in a drawer. I left for work at 6am today and got home at 8pm. Opened the drawer and seen it was a faint positive. I'm almost 100% sure it's an evap though. I'll test again tomorrow and hopefully will have an answer

@Bestkindaparty how many DPO are you? Hope the line isn't an indent!

I'm either 9 or 10dpo. I'm not getting my hopes up as I know it could be an evap. I think this month is worse as I hear a lot that you're more fertile after a mc. Kind of set my heart on that even though it's not realistic. I had a mmc in January but that took a while to resolve as I had retained products for a long time. My mc last month doesn't seem to have affected my usual cycle so have been a bit more obsessed than usual