feel scared to get pregnant

[LaudamusTe]

I'm supposed to stop taking my birth control pills but I feel so scared. My husband is thrilled about our plans to start our own family. I'm nervous, scared and I feel alone. I'm estranged from my mum, no father and not close with my sister. Every night for the past 3 nights I would hold the pill in my hand and contemplate for a long time, whther I should take it. I have only taken one last night, my husband does not know I behave this way he thinks that i quit the pills three days ago. I'm 34 so I can't put this off any longer. Do you have any advice on how to get past this?

To be honest you don't sound ready.

People have children later than 34 so I wouldn't go for it now if you're truly not ready.
Honestly I was so excited to start trying but also nervous as it's a big change. When we got the positive test I was so happy I cried and so excited but also scared and nervous.

It's ok to be scared and nervous, I'm pretty sure it's normal. However if you have zero excitement about the idea it sounds like you're not ready.

I'd have a think about it and decide where you're at and then have an honest chat to your husband, he'll understand if you're not quite ready yet.

@LaudamusTe I wasn't ready with 34. Time isn't running out yet. Take another year or two and start when you're feeling sure about it. Or at least more sure than unsure.

You're in this with your husband- make use of that and speak to him! It's perfectly normal to be nervous but if you're not ready and having second thoughts please speak to him!

Also want to add that your relationship with your sibling/parents can have no bearing on your relationship with your child (if you're worried about that!).

I do think that at 34 you're at a great age, just in case you can't conceive naturally you'll have other options open to you!

Either way, this is very much your decision so don't worry if you don't feel ready and want to wait a bit longer. Good luck!