Hi, this has been an issue for the last few years, since my last baby. But now I've turned 40years old and just cant decide if I want to try for another baby.
I most definitely want another one, but I have one child with autism, and that worries me..incase I die in pregnancy or labour related issues.
I know that's extreme but its holding me back. My sister had a blot clot when pregnant so as far as I'm aware I could be prone to them too big I never got one with my other pregnancies.
Basically, I'm wondering if Its too risky at 40 to get pregnant safely and how the hell can I stop worrying about dying !! My boys are super close to me especially the child with autism. My dad died in his 60s so if I had another would gav be selfish to them if I died young..sorry for the boring post just cant make up my mind and feel its becoming to late now that I'm 40.