Just needed somewhere to rant as there no-one I can talk to about this. My fertility journey is so complex we don’t tell anyone when ttc.
On cycle 5, my opk’s were getting stronger last night and I typically miss my peak as it’s during the night. Should have been perfect timing except, my DH is currently just a H. DD went missing from afterschool club yesterday along with one of her friends. They didn’t realise for 30mins and was only because they checked on the other child that they even realised. Turns out they decided to just leave on their own as they thought it was the plan. It was not, and never has been the plan. So, I asked H to come home instead of going to the gym as I needed some support talking to DD, and after a serious incident at work, I wasn’t having the best day and was struggling.
He came home but was awful to me because he missed going to the gym. He knew last night was the best timing for bd but said he didn’t care and has spent the past 24hrs calling me names. He admitted this morning he knew refusing to bd would hurt me due to the timing and that’s why he did it.
I am heartbroken. Because of my age ive only give myself a set number of months which is almost at an end now so he knew how important it was. I feel like I can’t trust him anymore and feel so low that he’s put the gym ahead of me and DD in terms of what’s important in his life.
I feel like I’m about to go from TCC my second rainbow baby, to divorce. I don’t know how to even try and get past this. What he’s done is unforgivable.
Not really sure why I’m posting other than I needed to get it off my chest. Sorry.