We're coming up to month 12 of TTC with not even a hint of a positive pregnancy test. We're awaiting some final tests back, but it's looking like unexplained infertility, DH is turning 43 soon and I will be turning 37, so it's looking unlikely that it will happen for us.
I am part of a team of around 15 people who are mainly in their 30s and 40s and mainly women. I am starting to dread team meetings, etc. because I am sick to the back teeth of discussions about toddlers and babies that I cannot contribute to as it's not relevant to my life.
It got even more intolerable recently as a colleague who just went on her maternity leave (unknowingly) chose the same name for her DC that DH and I had chosen years ago should we have a child of that particular sex (yes, I know that no one owns a name, but it's a pretty unusual name and it felt like a big kick in the teeth).
I've started muting my team's WhatsApp group and getting out of team meetings and online socials where it's possible to do so, but I am a little worried about the negative effect that being seen as anti-social might have on my career. There's absolutely no way I would want to disclose fertility issues to anyone at work with, as why would I want to risk getting sidelined at work for a future pregnancy that will probably never happen?
If anyone else has endured similar, then I would be interested to hear your coping strategies.