8 pages to catch up on I've been flat out at work so this will probably be an essay of a post sorry ladies!
Thanks for those who commented on the recall from the fertility clinic messing with our heads, I started tagging but there were so many it would take up half the post! I did read all your input tho so thanks for your thoughts and advice to all, much appreciated!
It's not so much the tests that are the problem I know it wouldn't hurt to have them done but that then technically puts us back on the ttc journey again and 19 months, 5 early losses have just left us utterly beaten that I dont know if we have it in us to go through it all again. We haven't felt as happy in a long time as when we made the decision to adopt and if you want to adopt then you have to have completely stopped all fertility investigations for at least a year first. If we start up investigations again it could be another 6 months/year who knows of potentially false hope only to find us back in the same position and wanting to adopt then having to wait another year on top. But at the same time if we don't continue with the clinic what if we have regrets further down the line 🤷♀️ its a head fuck so I'm currently being an ostrich and just sticking my head in the sand trying not to think about any of it at all at the minute which is working out much better 😂 We aren't using protection during sex but we're not trying and have resigned ourselves to the fact that any future late periods are just another CP anyways so just going to think of them as heavy late periods instead as I can't handle seeing two lines disappear any more times.
It probably also doesn't help we're having to do the lateral flow tests twice a week at work which just remind me of pregnancy tests (I'll attach a pic) and there's always at least one comment a week from work with someone making some kind of hooray negative I'm not pregnancy comment 🤦♀️
@paintfairy you'll need to send me your fitbit username once you've got your new fitbit up and running and I'll add you to our challenges the girls def keep me moving. You're welcome to join too @2020mission, I usually only average around 10k steps a day, sometimes less sometimes more and can add you to bingo challenges they give you tasks according to your personal average so even if someone does more than you it doesn't matter as your bingo cards are based on your stats if that makes sense.
@Hopeful110 glad your OH has decided to put on his big boy pants and do a SA, it's not like ttc, pregnancy or birth is a walk in the park for you so a quick jizz in a pot and await the results is the least he could do!
Hope you've rested up while off work @djmum83 and the sickness has settled a bit.
I feel your pain on the centre parcs trips @Minster2012 we've shuffled our caravan holiday about so many times it's not funny. Need normality to resume ASAP!
@notyetamumbuttrying that's amazing news on the SA! You and OH must be so relived and overjoyed at the news.
Very talented @tornado2Inc lovely jumper! I was going to suggest a calpol syringe if you and any but saw that great minds think alike 😂
Not long till your appointment @blackcurrantqueen must feel like a relief to know things are moving forward 😊
@Dollybird89 have you tried kettlebells for the days you dont want to do the hiit videos? I like chichi health and fitness Kettlewell workouts on YouTube he has short 15min ones that are good for when you're just starting out or short on time.
I used to do the Barbra currie yoga that @paintfairy was talking about, I found her the least irritating and not too airy fairy as some yoga videos can be. And new Zealand will be great motivation to spurr you on tho your motivation has seemed great anyways as its usually you spurring all us on 😊
@Franklydear fantastic news about the support for your appeal, fingers crossed it works.
@katao sounding promising that your appointment will go ahead next week 🤞
Sorry about the symptoms getting your hopes up @Minster2012. Ttc sucks it's official. What's the next step on your journey? Actually I won't be lazy, once DS is in bed and stops clamouring over the top of me I'm going to go back to the start of the bus and read thru it all properly.
Front of the house is looking lovely @2alreadywantanother, very petty of the previous tennant but then again thinking of it if someone had indicated I'd get first refusal then didn't give it to me after all the work I've put in it's the kind of petty thing I would likely have resorted to 🙈 Sucks for you, tho by the looks of things you've done a great job getting it to how you want it.
Big hugs @Justanothercyster hopefully once you get the scan all will be fine and it'll put your mind at ease.
Sorry if I've missed anyone I was speed reading/replying with an active 3 year old using me as a climbing frame. Will have a proper read once the monkey is in bed