I feel so stupid

[LittleGwyneth]

I know that testing early is a route to madness. I think I've told other people that before and everything. And yet who just snuck downstairs into the bathroom and peed on a FRER at 9 days DPO, six days before her period is due? That'll be me.

My boobs are veiny, heavy and sore. I feel lightly sick a lot of the time. I don't even fancy wine much (extremely out of character for me). But all of that could be completely psychosomatic /confirmation bias-y.

Basically I'm so fucking cross with myself for doing it. It hasn't answered the question because of course I'm still desperately hoping against hope that the test might not have picked up on HCG and I might still get a positive. And to top it all of I'm being utterly pathetic because we've only been trying two/three months and I'm already becoming a basket case. How am I going to act if it takes years?!

Someone please give me a firm shake.

Oh OP this is gunna be me later. I feel so so sick it's our first month TTC and I'm addicted to POAS. I've ordered FRERs and they've arrived so as soon as I'm through the door I'm testing. At 9 DPO. I know it's to early but there's always a chance 😂🤦🏽‍♀️ sorry, I'm such an enabler!

Oh this is totally me as well! I feel for you. This is only our first cycle - I had hoped that my obsession and constant urge to POAS was due to novelty of it being the first month, but it doesn’t sound like it gets much better a month or two down the line from what you’ve said!

I knew I would be a serial tester so I bought some cheap tests and what I thought was a FRER - turns out I bought rapid response instead so it’s next to useless at only 9dpo! So annoyed with myself!

Sounds like you’ve got some positive symptoms though! Fingers crossed for you! I’ve had a few mild things, but pretty sure it’s all in my head unfortunately.

If it makes you feel any better, I just did a test and I am on CD11 and haven't even ovulated yet...just in case that period I had last week was just random pregnancy bleeding!! hangs head in shame
Don't be too hard on yourself. Particularly at the beginning of your journey, this process is all consuming. Buy yourself some Internet cheapies to help with the urge to pee on something. Another trick is not to order the FRERs until it is an acceptable time to test!
Theres 2 types of TTC-ers in this world, there's the ones who have the genuinely uncontrollable urge to pee on a stick from the moment they have had sex and then there's the other mythical creatures who have self control!!

@madeinthe80z

If it makes you feel any better, I just did a test and I am on CD11 and haven't even ovulated yet...just in case that period I had last week was just random pregnancy bleeding!! hangs head in shame Don't be too hard on yourself. Particularly at the beginning of your journey, this process is all consuming. Buy yourself some Internet cheapies to help with the urge to pee on something. Another trick is not to order the FRERs until it is an acceptable time to test! Theres 2 types of TTC-ers in this world, there's the ones who have the genuinely uncontrollable urge to pee on a stick from the moment they have had sex and then there's the other mythical creatures who have self control!!

I did that last cycle! I just peed randomly on dozens of internet cheapies as if that was going to somehow make me happy?! It's so weird to think I used to have to psyche myself up to take a test and would be praying for one line, now I'm the opposite in every way.

Still v much hoping I just went too early and I'm pg, if I'm totally honest.

Babydust for all!

We all do it @LittleGwyneth don't feel stupid at all!!! I took apart a FRER yday at 7dpo because I saw a faint line, not knowing that it makes the test invalid and creates evap lines 🙄 tested again this morning and got BFN and I am banning myself from testing until fri at 11DPO!

Haha @LittleGwyneth see we aren't alone in this crazed testing addiction!
9DPO is definitely very early, particularly if you have a slightly longer cycle. When is AF due for you??
I'm just entering my fertile window and if it doesn't happen this month, we are taking a break for a month to avoid a Christmas baby (very organised haha)

@madeinthe80z I'm not due until March 1st and even that is a bit on the earlier side for me - my cycles are still a bit wonky following a suspected miscarriage. I made DP have sex with me every other day in February JUST IN CASE. He claimed to be happy about it but I think at this point he just wants a long nap. Long story short I think I wait a week and if no AF I can let myself use the other FRER in my packet!

@Fifi1086 If you hold out until then you have my admiration and you should buy yourself something nice!

@LittleGwyneth I really don't need any encouragement 😂😂 and I seriously doubt I'll be able to hold out until Friday ... but I won't be telling anyone if I don't 😂😂 unless of course it's BFP...

I'm also due 1st March!

@fifi1086 here's hoping for us!!

This was totally me last month, I had all the symptoms going, totally convinced it had happened and then on CD28/9DPO I went to the loo and saw bright red blood which was early AF. I was really so suprised I gasped out loud. Hopefully my leutal phase will be longer this month.

9DPO is still early though so definitely don'y count yourself out! fingers crossed for you.

BFN today at 12dpo on a FRER, and a small amount of bleeding :(

Sorry @LittleGwyneth that sucks. 🤞🤞🤞🤞 for next month. Treat yourself tonight x