Hi everyone, not even sure why I am typing but think I need a little hand hold. Been TTC for nearly a year but had an MC at 8 weeks in October (after we decided to take a month off really trying in August!!). Got ovulation sticks this month for the first time. Still AF arrived today. It just feels completely hopeless. The TWW is an awful mix of hell and hope. DP thinks it should be getting easier as we are so used to it now...it's definitely not for me.
If I conceived when I/we relaxed last year how can I ever relax and conceive again as I will always have this very non-relaxing hope.
I'm also worried about dtd - after an internal scan during my MC I had a very strange and emotional reaction - an overwhelming feeling of violation - but it didn't seem to relate to the present - but I have no memory of anything happening to me in the past. I have always been a bit uncomfortable with sex but it is a means to a TTC end (that sounds awful I know and my poor DP-I dunno why he even wants to be with me). I don't even know if this means anything.
Does anyone have any tips for "relaxing"?