Hi to whoever might read this. I've dipped in and out of many a thread on here over the past year, but this is the first time I've posted anything. Hoping to find some solidarity - I know many of you are also going through some of the same things as I am, but also wonder if I'm the only one with some situations!
I came off the combined pill in October 2019 as my husband and I wanted to start trying for a baby. My period came back pretty much straight away and resumed the regular pattern I'd always had before starting on the pill.
I think I assumed I may have some problems conceiving, as I've suffered for years with a lot of excess hair growth and more recently other skin issues such as tags. PCOS had been batted around as a possibility because of that years before pregnancy was even on my mind, but had been considered unlikely by the Dr because my cycles are not irregular. Had a scan at that time that showed nothing.
Now we've been TTC for more than a year, I've had the initial fertility checks again. Bloods came back normal enough (some levels slightly off, but nothing enough to be concerning apparently). Been for a scan at the hospital again and that has come back with a result of possible PCOS as my ovaries are slightly different sizes?? They didn't say anything about identifying cysts though.
I'm just incredibly confused because of my regular cycles. I have also been doing opks for the last 3/4 months which always show a peak as far as I can tell. I know PCOS is possible with regular cycles, but I haven't found anyone else who has this. If I seem to be ovulating regularly, what could the issue be?
I know I need more investigations. The next thing has to be OHs SA before my gp will refer us to a gynaecologist. The problem is that the nearest place he can go with the sample is an hour's drive away and the sample needs to be fresh within an hour! We had hoped to stay in a hotel somewhere nearer but with the pandemic that hasn't been possible and may not be for a long time. He can use a room at the hospital instead, but understandably he has concerns about being able to produce the sample there, so is reluctant. I feel crazy with impatience to progress, but don't want to push him, so now we may just have to wait.
I'm in a place now where I feel having children is just something that happens to other people. It's not meant for us. I also feel like I have no one to talk to about what's going on. My poor husband is great, but has heard it from me over and over again. I don't know of any friends in the same boat either. When I try to bring up the subject with my mum, I feel like she always tries to move on from it quickly. I think it hurts her too. My sister wasn't able to conceive either. I want to talk to her about it, but she lives abroad and has just gone through divorce, so it's not an easy subject to broach. I'm the youngest by 15 years (about to turn 32), so it's like I'm the last hope for our family to grow. I get so carried away with my emotions over the situation sometimes that I start with ridiculous things like imagining us as a lonely old couple with no family. Extreme I know haha.
Sorry for the long post. Maybe someone has a similar experience with some of these things or some words of wisdom? Even just some friendship while lonely and TTC obsessed during lockdown would be lovely.
Take care all 