Hey everyone. Have lurked on MN for quite a few months and love watching the care and generosity with which users treat strangers problems.
I had a MMC at the end of October at 11 weeks and have been struggling ever since really. Lockdown feels like particularly cruel timing as with limited distractions I just find myself constantly thinking about it.
I had my first period at the beginning of December and found it quite traumatic, it felt very ‘final’ and like my body was moving on and my mind had to follow suit. Since then I was feeling better and we began TTC more seriously again.
I was due AF 8 January and there has been no sign of it. At first we were excited and thought maybe I was one of the lucky ones who catches again really soon but as the time has gone on and the BFNs are piling up I feel I am spiralling quite fast back to a bit of a dark place.
I am so desperate to move on and have a baby but I’m scared that my body isn’t working properly.
Did anyone have a similar experience, how long did it take for your cycles to return to normal after MC and does the longing for that lost little one ever get easier?
G x