Bit of a long post sorry...I am trying for no 2 my DD is 9. I have only just changed my mind about more kids started in Dec. THIS IS NOT a post moaning about conception before anyone starts... i know its been seconds compared to some. And I am aware it could take years. I just mean I don't picture it.. i want it but i can't see it at all. I usually can with anything I want like when I was getting married I could picture it happening. Dont know if im making sense. But im just worried that its like a sign or subconscious thought. Example when I booked my holiday for last year (cancelled due to covid) I booked before covid was a big thing and I couldn't see myself being there even when I booked it. 🙈🙈 anyone else do this???