Hi all just wanted some advice really. Been ttc#2 for 14 months i have pcos have tried ovulation tests but really irregular periods so hard to track. My ds will be 5 this year the gap is longer than i wanted but he has had some health needs which have had to come above everything else. I don't really know why i am posting just feel in such a dark place at the moment. It is silly and i know i should be grateful i have my beautiful ds but theres a physical ache in my heart i dont know how to explain it. I apologise in advance if i cause offence to anyone in a similar situation. I am trying to be strong but month after month of negative pregnancy tests i don't know how much more i can take. Seeing Dh's face as a negative result comes up on the tests it breaks my heart but he has been so lovely and reassuring. I have spoken to gp around the 12 month mark given they have done tests and aside from pcos (which we knew) there is no other problem they said to continue trying as it can take longer in someone with pcos. I am active and have lost some weight but i don't know how to pick myself up from this. AF was due last wednesday by rough calculations but hadn't arrived and i allowed myself to dream but todays test has shattered me. I feel exhausted. I have been suffering from terrible migraines dr wants me to start on Amitriptyline 10mg assuring me it would be safe but i am just feeling so unsure is anyone ttc on amitriptyline or pregnant and still on amitriptyline? i don't want to hinder any chance of conception as chances already seem to be so slim.
I am sorry for the long ramble im just sat in bed after a day of being numb and finally need to let it out.