Ttc for some months now - yawn - and have cruised various ttc threads but now conclude I have to get through this myself so stopped posting/whining/hoping publicly. Started on Evening Primrose to sort out CM prob (no egg white for months) and lo and behold there it was on Day 16!! Halelujah!! (sp?)Was so excited just at the egg white result alone as I felt I had made some sort of progress..
So this Monday, Cycle Day 29 of 35-ish day cycle, I start feeling a little nauseous. Tuesday and Wednesday, again a little nauseous but on both days but I wondered if I am imagining it due to wanting to be preg. Wednesday night at 3am I wake up definitely feeling sick and want to scream from the roof top "I am feeling nauseous, it's day 32 and I must be preg" (I don't) and after an hour of feeling smug, blissfully content, life is perfect, etc, preparing for No 3 late June 2005 and working out how old it's siblings will be, etc, I manage to get back to a restful sleep.
Thursday, I am sitting in my office feeling nauseous with odd cramps and think "Funny, feel sick and have cramps, but do remember the cramps I had with both pregs early on. Revel in the horribly sick feeling again feeling smug and the sicker I feel and the more smug I felt and think "sign of a strong pregnancy". As the day goes on, I am frozen, feeling sick with tummy pain and think, it's a cold day, definitly feeling sick so will confirm with a preg test.
BFN - thought to myself "too early, too early" and trot / stagger back to office on serious high vowing not to poison fetus with pain killers and thinking how lucky I am to be preg. What does it matter if I feel sick/in pain/uncomfortable? S'normal.
Late Thursday afternoon, cannot avoid the fact that I want to throw up, I feel weak, frozen with newly developed back and neck ache. Mention it ever so casually to colleagues who then proceed to tell me there is a bug around like the achiness of flu but without the cold symptoms. It suddenly hits me: I have a bug!!!!
Has this happended to any other MNer or something similar that you would care to share with us/me so I know I am not alone?
Your comments gratefully received.