I'm 34, month 8 TTC. I seem to have hit a whole new level of TTC meltdown that I didn't know even existed. I'm used to the period cries every other month at least but this time around I ended up having a mid-cycle meltdown last night. I'm 35 in 6 weeks which isn't something I'm looking forward to at least in the TTC world. I think that with the fact that my period was 2 days late last week (and decided to surprise me at 4am, a day before my OH birthday) meant I was well and truly dabbling my toes into the hope-zone. I've been diagnosed with a fibroid that needs to come out and will make it harder to conceive, but struggling to actually get an appointment and it'd cost £6-7k privately (!!!) so I've kind of resigned myself to infertility for now. I've even been looking at IVF clinics and wondering if we would want to adopt.
Last night I basically had a 1hr meltdown, where I cried so hard I couldn't breathe. My nose instantly filled with snot and I was basically crying kneeling on the sofa, occasionally muttering that I was going to be geriatric, whilst my OH held onto me to stop me fainting onto the floor.
I think the being in more with the covid situation is making things worse too. I keep loosing perspective and spend loads of my time being really introspective about fairly minor issues: am I too fat? Should I be careful about the intermittent fasting I do? Am I drinking too much caffeine (1cup)? Am I exercising too much, or too little?
I'm only 8 months in and it seems like I'm probably in it for the long haul. Anyone else care to share/vent their stories? Any success stories?