Back story is I found out I was pregnant end of March. Had a scan at 9 weeks, mmc, had misoprostol at 11 weeks, 3 weeks later had ERPC for retained products, 4 weeks later had a hysteroscopy for same retained products. I’m now 7 weeks after the hysteroscopy and no AF and multiple BFNs. I thought I’d ovulated around 10th August because of ewcm but clearly not. So where the hell is AF.
I’m so fed up, 6 months of shite where I should be 6 months pregnant. Not sure I can take any more. I want to throw in the towel and focus on something else but all I want is a baby so can’t break the cycle and certainly not while I’m in this limbo.
I don’t know what to do anymore, people keep saying it will happen, and I just respond I know but what my brain is screaming is “I know it will Barbara but fuck me it happened already and it failed. Failed 5 times actually In a year.”
I don’t really have anyone to speak to, my work is suffering (they know about the mc but still just had a warning for not being meticulous enough). Honestly feel like the world is against me right now.
Sorry for the long one, need to vent.