Af arrived, crazy emotional, too far

[Natureotter]

Only on 2nd cycle trying but had chemical a year ago and couldn’t face trying until now...on 9dpo I felt implantation cramps, it wasn’t even like period cramps, I knew something was happening. My cycle has suddenly went from 23 days to 27 days so I was late. Af came today. Gutted.
Dh works away so ttc is difficult and I’ve got to time everything down to the last hour to make sure I’m covered, Including trying to book lieu days when I’m ovulating. It’s already became so stressful. This month I had opks, bbt, pre seed and apps and all sorts of supplements. And af bloody comes. It makes everything seem a waste of time. I’m so emotional and cranky because of af and I know I sound pathetic because there are women on here been trying for years and are real troopers, and here’s me being pathetic.
It’s just all consuming. I’m thinking of ditching opks, bbt and just go by how my body feels. The amount of money spent on opks, lubes And pregnancy tests is ridiculous.
Sorry, just ranting.

You’re allowed an emotional response. Yes it can take a lot longer, & there’s nothing wrong with it not happening yet. I tried for 8 years with an ex, & got nothing, but that doesn’t mean I had more right than you to be sad.

Allow yourself to be angry, & sad. I won’t tell you to be patient because nobody wants to be patient. Just take each cycle as they come

Big love!

Eight years, wow you are made of strong stuff, did you get your bfp or still trying? Big hugs to you, I can’t imagine how hard that would be to go through.
I’m 30 so feel she is creeping up so need to get a move on. I’m overweight by three stone too so super paranoid it’s that, I need to make losing weight my focus....but then not get too hung up on it all too.

I think af is just making me super emotional. I think when af arrives you just don’t feel in control anymore, it’s really difficult.