Hi ladies,
Hope you're all enjoying the sun!
I don't know if this is the right place to post this but I guess I'm looking for some reassurance. I have a three year old little boy who entered this world after a pretty traumatic and long labour. Add into that severe issues with breastfeeding and a colicky baby, plus next to no sleep and you had me becoming very unwell. By the time he was three months old I was extremely anxious and experiencing horrible thoughts that completely threw me. I was lucky enough to have such a good support system plus therapy and a weekly group for mums who were dealing with similar issues. By the time he turned one I felt much better and now doing very well. I work three days a week at the hospital as a secretary and my son is either with my mum or at nursery. My husband works a lot at the moment as we are in the process of buying our first house. Aside from general life stresses we are happy and healthy.
After some recent discussions we've decided to start trying for a second baby. Except now I am starting to feel REALLY anxious. I know I would like another one and would love a sibling for our son but because it is actually happening now, I keep feeling so worried that I won't want it once it happens, or that I will become just as unwell or even worse than I was before.
So my question is, has anyone here had another after having postnatal depression? What are your experiences?
I know we all have different experiences but sometimes the fear of it all happening again feels too much to bear. I don't want it to put me off having another child, because why should it?